Disclaimer: This writing is purely to document my life and how I'm feeling. You can read it but please don't expect any learnings from it.

Quit my full time job in March 2025 at TMRW to work on Bondub and there was a personal reason as well behind it. Went home for a festival in April and full april sucked. So many things happened all at once. Can't work on Bondub full time.

Job search and finding projects starts again in may. I used to listen to stories like big stars came to mumbai with very less money in pocket and very big dreams in the eyes and hearts and some of them actually made it and they made it big. I used to just think about their lives and now, I am living one of my own.

Big dreams in my eyes and my heart, I've come back to bangalore and living on my savings, finding jobs and projects that would just let me survive here and buy me some more time to find a decent job in this blood-bath job market.

It's honestly very scary but I'm also excited because I get to build things from scratch again. I genuienly don't know what's gonna happen because my life is very wild as of now. Trusting the process when you don't know what's coming is hard. Being alone in a big city like this, being on your own is hard that too without a fixed source of income, pure madness. World is going through some serious problems.

Dealing with all this + health related issues is genuienly a lot I feel but everyone goes through something like this ig.

Currently my focus is to find a job in a country which can go to war anytime, idk what will happen or find some freelance work so I can sustain myself and buy myself some more time, because I don't want to go back to my hometown as a loser. I'll do anything to not end up in this situation.

That's the worst thing that can happen but to be honest, I'm not scared of it. Maybe that's best for me. Lot of changes are happening in this world currently. Some people are selling pdfs of their e-books which is telling that Designers will be dead and here's how to survive it. Design will get cheaper and cheaper etc etc. Buy my $250 e-book to see how you can survive. Never been a big visionary.

People are telling to start building apps of my own with tools such as lovable etc. So many people want a job in this rapidly changing industry with ai and wars happening, I honestly don't know what's going on. I do think I should have just stayed in my hometown till things cool down.

A boy from a middle class family, came to a big city with some savings, with big dreams in his eyes and heart, trying to make his name, a good life for himself and his family, trying to be capable enough to provide. In a world like this, he is scared but he isn't giving up. This is as raw and real as it gets.